Sunday, November 22, 2009 8:51 PM
Stop holding back the things you lost
Well.. My last post kinda failed didn't it? Oh well, forget about all that rubbish.
It seems like every time I start a blog I can't even be bothered tryna finish it anymore.
Man, have I become slack or what.. So slack that I've only been to school about 8 days this term :/ But I had my own reasons for that, as well as being slack.. LOL
The past few months have been a serious blur for me, a really retarded one.
My life has shifted from so many places too quickly I can't keep up, it's had me confused.
Confused about everything. Family, friends, school, "love", life.. It screwed me up, REAL BAD.
Part of the reason why I didn't go to school for so long was because my mind was messed up.
I slept during the day and was awake during the night until around 6am, sleep time!
I went out when I woke up, so I'd always be out from 10pm till early morning.
I partied too much, drank too much, smoked too much and cried too much. All for him..
Mum knew that if this kept going, my life would result to me being a hobo on the streets. HA!
She sent me to the doctors and she recommended me to a psychologist? Psychiatrist..?
Same thing, only one of them are allowed to subscribe drugs.
Bad idea, I didn't want to talk to anyone about anything!
I broke down when she asked questions.. She knew what was wrong with me and I didn't like it.
I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression and insomnia.. It was getting way too out of hand.
I slowly decided to try and fix myself up. Not only for me, but for my mother.
It took time, but slowly I would force myself to wake up at least before 4pm.
Today, I'm almost there. But I still lack energy and stamina throughout the day.
I have been to school and asked the teachers for last assignments for me to do,
they can mark me on that SO I DON'T FAIL YEAR 10.
I still have so much more to type, but this post is getting too long.
Next post.. And hopefully it won't take another 2-3 months :P
Hope you didn't miss me too much! ♥
Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Others stay awhile,
make footprints on our hearts and we are never, ever the same.